I'm not sure if I'm cut out for this

I look in the mirror and I see a massive gut that sticks out and hate it. So why can I not stop eating?

I got home last night and stuffed my face. It was like I was out of control.

The list of shame
Porridge with blueberries, sunflower seeds, pecan nuts, yoghurt, soya milk
Green tea x2
Apple
Apple juice
Asparagus soup
Ham and olive salad
Apple
Green tea
Orange fruit thing (still can't remember it's name)
Count on us pretzels
5 olives
Piece toast with mushroom pate
2 slices salami
1/2 thin pizza (it said 376 cals per half pizza)
Salad


Bah.

I didn't mean to have pizza, but Martin was going to cook Dhal but his train was late so we would have starved to death by the time he'd cooked it. So we had to had pizza instead. He cooked the dhal at about 10pm last night which means that I have it for lunch today and for tea tonight. At least there will be the excuse that I won't know when dinner is to nibble tonight. But there is the football - I WILL NOT DRINK BEER with the football tonight. And you can hold me to that.