A rant
I can't even begin to post what I ate on the weekend, but it wasn't good. And I had planned to be alcohol-free for most of it, and do exercise Fri, Sat and Sun. But it all went horribly wrong. What is wrong with me? I have absolutely zero self-control.
As I'm turning 30 next year, I have been reflecting a lot on what I can change about myself. I realised that I have been trying to diet/get fit since I was 13! That's 16 years of making promises I don't keep/having a 'new start' every single Monday/hating myself when it all goes wrong.
I don't know how to approach it next. I'm fairly happy with my figure at the moment, probably better than it's been for years, but I still would love to be 7lbs lighter, be more toned, and have a 98% fantastic diet (you've got to have a treat sometimes I suppose). And although some days I feel good, on others I feel grotesque.
Or should I just forget about trying to get the perfect body, and just concentrate on learning to love what I have? But really, I don't think that's going to happen. You either have confidence and a good body image or you don't. And I don't.
Isn't it difficult being a woman today, when you have to be beautiful, thin, well groomed, stylish, clever, funny and have a nice house, perfect relationship, lots of friends, a great career, etc etc, etc... And men just have to have the woman who does all of the above, and they don't worry about everything all the time. Sometimes I wish feminism never happened.
Oh well, rant over. If I'm going to be this all-new successful 30-year-old woman, I need to start by doing some bloody work!
3 Comments:
At 11:12 am,
Bex said…
Right. Will you stop right there? Listen to yourself and take a good look at yourself. We have talked about this a lot. NO ONE had the perfect body. Even if you were 7lb lighter and more toned you'd want something else and find something else not right. You are thin, pretty, fun, clever with a good job, a lovely husband and a fantastic home.
I know there is pressure on women to be everything, but we are our own worst enemies. We are always trying to 'improve' ourselves. We are nice people already! We don't have to be any nicer! Lots of people love us for who we are and that's all that matters. SO PLEASE stop being so hard on yourself. You had a good time this weekend, so what does it matter that you had some booze and ate some cake.
At 11:19 am,
Emma said…
Oooo, I feel a bit told off ;-)
I know we have talked about this lots and lots, but you know what it's like - we are all always on a journey of self-improvement, hence this blog and all the lists we write! Just felt like having a rant.
It all started with Alan Titchmarsh. Saw a pic of him yesterday and was thinking how if he was a woman, he would never be on TV, as frumpy 50something women are portrayed differently from frumpy 50something men.
At 11:25 am,
Bex said…
No, it's bloody unfair and I feel really sorry for actresses who no matter how brilliant they are at acting, won't get any lead roles after they are 40 whereas men actors go on forever and ever. And can have affairs with 20 year olds when they are 70. They get so bad that they have poisons injected into their foreheads. Urgh.
I think we are right to want to improve ourselves, but we have to admit that we won't be perfect. We should be making the best of ourselves by keeping healthy, keeping ourselves interesting and wanting to improve our own world and doing what we can to help others, but that won't make us perfect. But we will be contributing. And that is what makes us good people, rather than others who sit on their arses and whinge about how they haven't go a boyfriend.
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